random collection of thoughts. not all are the same person, but some people have more than one that apply to them. Lily did something like this and I thought now would be a good venting time. some people won’t ever see this, but that’s not really the point. hello 3:30.

1. I had a dream about you the other night. part of me wishes I knew how to get a hold of you so I could tell you about it, but I don't think you'd care about it anyway.
2. for roughly the past year, I’ve felt like I’ll never be ready for the “real world”.
3. I kinda wish you DID have a crush on me back in the day, but I don’t think we’d be friends any more if you had.
4. even though I value honesty more than a lot of other virtues, I have a tendency to lie about unimportant details.
5. when we had that forum on stress, I said I didn’t feel any stress or pressure from you. I’m starting to rethink that statement.
6. in a few months, I don’t know that we’ll talk anymore. that really scares me.
7. I’m sorry for all the times you’ve tried to talk to me and I’ve been “busy” with something that’s not as important as my time with you is. I’m trying to get better.
8. I’m worried that you’ll grow up and lose your bubbly attitude.
9. I think you’re really beautiful. I wish you saw it too.
10. I’ve thought about just driving for as long as I could to see where I’d end up.
11. I wish our plan worked and we ended up going to college together. I don’t think we’ll talk as much now; losing a friend like you would suck.
12. a lot of the time after we say goodnight, I stay up and think about stuff. I’d say 25% of the time I end up crying.
13. I wish I hadn’t lost contact with you after you graduated.
14. you’ll assume a lot of these are about the wrong people, and I’m not going to tell you who they are when you ask.
15. I hate when you treat me like I’m an idiot over mistakes anyone could have made. I’m not as dumb as you make me out to be.
16. I spend more time thinking about the possibility of things happening than I do on things that actually happen.
17. I wish I still wrote in my journal.
18. I look at all the possible poor choices I could have made that I didn’t, and wonder why you still expect more.
19. I think getting to know me made you a better person, as conceited as that sounds.
20. any time I hear Jack Johnson on the radio, I think of you. that makes me hate his music even more.
21. I think you have a much higher potential than you’re achieving right now.
22. I saved a bunch of our AIM conversations from years ago. I read them again recently, and I’m really glad I’ve grown up.
23. I think if you had gone to Carondelet, and I could have been with you more, you would have turned out a lot better than you are now.
24. I wish I knew how to cook.
25. for a really long period of time, when I was being driven in a car, I’d think about opening the door and jumping out; not to die, but I still don’t know why I thought about it.
26. I think you were more popular than I was in high school. that bothers me.
27. I still brood over the fact I got you that really awesome present and you didn’t get me anything.
28. I’m probably going to have a breakdown when you die.
29. you’ve given me some of the coolest, most thoughtful presents ever. even if they didn’t cost that much.
30. I wish you understood that me being on WoW is the equivalent of you being on AIM.
31. I wish I had known you.
32. sometimes I wish I could have been born a couple centuries in the future.
33. I think it would be interesting to be a boy for a week.
34. I’d like it if you thought about other things more often.
35. I think you’re a very fake person.
36. I wish you hadn’t changed in high school. I miss 13 year old you.
37. I made some important choices because of you, but they may have been the wrong ones.
38. I regret knowing you. I wasted a lot of time hanging out with a very uninteresting person.
39. I really wish we had been closer friends. I’m pretty sure I won’t have the chance again. I hope you have a really wonderful life, because you deserve it.
40. I liked the 90’s better.
41. I hope I end up being a positive influence on you.
42. sometimes I find more meaning in lyrics than I do in real advice.
43. I think it was really nice of you to be such a gentleman to me.