This is pretty much a random tangent journal because I feel like it's time for a tangent. I'll try to organize it in pretty little paragraphs though, so it looks cooler and more exciting to read. Maybe I'll even use some boldys and underlineys too, we'll see.
I've been really stressed lately; part of this I blame on tech week and this photograph I'm supposed to be taking, but its also college, my friends, the fact it's gazelle season and all this other random stuff I keep bringing to mind.
I just keep thinking about how pretty much if I don't get into davis, I'm going to be dissatisfied wherever I go; and how if I get into davis, the 4 people who I think know me best who I see on a regular basis will be far enough away that getting together will be a problem, even on the weekends. Then I start thinking about how I wish I didn't have to deal with school and stuff and how much trouble it is to get everything done, but it wasn't like that my freshman year, because honestly, freshman year was probably the greatest year of my life, ever. I have the best memories from that year, and the best stories, and all that jazz. Granted I was super naïve, it was still an amazing fucking year, and Caucasia/Company/Every Day pretty much sucks now in comparison to what it was like before.
In a sense, I've fallen into perpetual apathy about EVERYTHING.
To add to this is the fact I'm all emo about relationship stuff. I blame this mostly on the fact its February and almost gazelle season, but I blame everything on gazelle season. I also hang out with the most adorably cuddle couple ever (not saying this is a bad thing, coz I love you guys), but my inner hopeless romantic keeps getting bigger and bigger, and it sucks. To combat this, however, I have the apathy that is eating away at my body like a cancer, which keeps the other half in check, but I have been more mood flippy than usual as a result.
Earlier I was thinking about that saying, "every rose has it's thorns", and I realized that I don't even really like roses. Fact: I've eaten at least a piece of the last 3 roses I've received, and 2 daisies. Granted this has nothing to do with what the quote is implying, but I don't want a "rose", that's too cliché and stupid. I want a daffodil, something that is so randomly awkward that it fits in perfectly. Plus daffodils are yellow and that's cool.
I've also had a lot of random dreams lately, like
really random. They're pretty entertaining though. Sidenote: make sure you look up a bunch of stuff in your dream dictionary. Kthnx.
One of the light bulbs in my fan went out earlier and it's really annoying. I hate my history class. While I hate history already, this class is like shit hole of all history classes.
It's also gazelle season, which sucks, but Jesse's birthday is coming up, and that's cool.
but gazelle season still sucks pretty bad
Anyway, I think I'm gonna stop writing and go sit on wow and do nothing. or I'll make a character on Jesse's server. Yep. *scamper*
Sorry. No boldys, but you did get a subscript thing. Woot.